Monday, December 19, 2016

To such comfort zone ...

To such comfort zone...
In adulthood I was able to reverse these discomforts in my favor so that I could free myself from this mediocre and oppressive system that constrained me, which made me live in daily discomfort in social life. Since I had never experienced such a comfort zone, I went to see the world with my own eyes, to feel the world and the people outside the oppressive bubble that I lived. I was not afraid to risk, I was not afraid of not being accepted, because acceptance had never been. I went to experience all the things that once were just dreams, daydreams of my head.
I've heard the phrase "Get out of your comfort zone." I feel that this phrase must come from a patriarchal system, from a structured racism, by a white elite. Prejudiced minorities have never been in a comfort zone. I could not find my own comfort zone having grown up in a society that lives inside a box, which forces you to live in a way, I always out of the accepted standards for the environment that I lived there.
In adulthood I was able to reverse these discomforts in my favor so that I could free myself from this mediocre and oppressive system that constrained me, which made me live in daily discomfort in social life. Since I had never experienced such a comfort zone, I went to see the world with my own eyes, to feel the world and the people outside the oppressive bubble that I lived. I was not afraid to risk, I was not afraid of not being accepted, because acceptance had never been. I went to experience all the things that once were just dreams, daydreams of my head.

Actually I still after having met the world, have discovered who I am, have accepted me and learned to listen to my inner voice that gives me the courage to follow and believe in my dreams I have not yet learned to be in a comfort zone. Maybe you never are, maybe never learn. Perhaps I myself judge people, most of them stagnant, stuck to patterns, labels, who live inside a box and are afraid to leave that box. My mistake. They barely know who they are and what they do here. They live to pay their bills, which are false rewards of not living a full life and barely know what their true dreams are.
The world has given me all the freedom I needed, freedom to be myself, freedom to work in whatever I please, freedom to travel, freedom to explore, sexual freedom (since I grew up in a racist and patriarchal society that judges Women and put them in different boxes), freedom to explore my own 
( English is not my first language, I used google translate, my english is not 100% correct , I know and I'll work in this articles better with more atenction, if you want help me with this corrections, I'll be glad to receive your help my email is alinepaes.arquitetura@gmail.com )